what's the deal?

I dont get what is going on in the cosmos. i'm not ready to write about this yet but just keep praying for my family right now. I dont know what else to say. wedding is one month away and i am going to be married and even older yet. 24 is not all it was cracked up to be and i didn't realize that 21 was the last birthday you looked forward to or cared how old you were at least. now i am never really sure how old i am when people ask me. i always have to ask someone around me for a reference age. Like Barry is 23 (until wednesday) so that means that i am 24. it is weird to not remember really what that means. also next year i am going to 25. now folks that is old. or at least in my world. but that is all i have to say about that.