i stole this but thought it seemed funny

Q: Type in "[your name] needs" in the Google search:
A: "Corey needs a haircut"

Q: Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search:
A: "Corey looks like that girl from the gym..." likely.

Q: Type in "[your name] says" in Google search:
A: "Corey says in part " The halt in trade, which was in at the close of the fear 1J20 continued through January, i91; so that the situation became extremely ..."

Q: Type in "[your name] wants" in Google search:
A: "Corey wants to battle"

Q: Type in "[your name] does" in Google search:
A: "Corey does Dallas"-- this is funny on so many levels

Q: Type in "[your name] hates" in Google search:
A: "Corey Hates John McCain, Possibly Even as Much as McCain Hates "[Insert Horrific Racial Slur]"

Q: Type in "[your name] asks" in Google search:
A:"COREY ASKS ACCOUNTING.; He Sues His Partner, Riter, Who Financed "The Amber Empress."

Q: Type in "[your name] goes" in Google search:
A:"Corey Goes Wild: A Reenactment"

Q: Type in "[your name] likes " in Google search:
A: "Corey Likes Lesbians" -- this isn't an untrue statement

Q: Type in "[your name] eats " in Google search:
A: "Corey EATS it on Hiller

Q: Type in "[your name] wears " in Google search:
A: "maybe Corey wears a pirate patch..."

Q: Type in "[your name] was arrested for" in Google Search:
A: "Corey was arrested for carrying a loaded gun prior to the incident"


this was fun... i liked seeing what came up.

remembering...

It is weird how you push certain things from your brain... memory is funny. weird funny. I was remembering things in the past couple of days from about about 2003. what like 6 years ago? something that i consider etched in my mind... a night where world views were shattered and i can't remember the details... and neither can others from that night. i think it is weird that it is so vivid and so blurred at the edges. I want to say just because I don't remember the details down to the t... i do remember that night... i remember it really well. I hate that night, and i love that night, and it is a weird conflict of truth.

enough about that... i am trying to write more. i did write 2 pages. i need to look at them again and see if I still like it.

it has been snowing like a bitch and i am sick of that... i want no snow in 2009. i don't know if that is possible but i am going to write my congressmen and see what they can do about it. hopefully something.

i was remembering things the other day... trying to get all my memories of my dad together... i need to write them down. i feel like my brother won't remember them because he is only 15. i don't remember them all... and the ones that i do remember are the more recent ones of him being sick. i hate those memories... but i wouldn't be me without them. someone at work was telling me that her dad died about 9 years ago and she is just starting to not remember those moments of her dad being sick in the hospital. i hope it goes faster than 9 years. memories.

sunday night

i think that i am going to start doing a book review on here....



it is weird cause right now i am only working like 32 hrs per week and i have an obscene amount of free time so until school starts i am going to be blogging like daily because i don't know what else to do.... i am going to start reading twilight... figure i should just concede now and read it since i know that i am going to read it eventually. also i am trying to get myself in my new work schedule. i am going to be working 4-midnight so i am trying to make myself stay up that late on a regular basis. also i am trying to make sure that i still get up at a decent time because i will have school during the day but i don't really know what my schedule is going to be like



i just need to make a plan. i am thinking about getting a 2nd job... i am waiting though to see how much time i am going to have... i have no idea. i just need to wait til school starts and then i can see how these things are going to work out. but i am just so anxious. i just need my plan figured out and then life will be less crazy.

7 things

I read this somewhere but i was told to write about 7 things that most people don't know or wouldn't know about me... of course there are going to be some people that know almost everything about me.... so whatever... like it or not

1. if i won the lottery i would buy a new pair of socks for everyday. i love new socks and i would buy a new pair for everyday. i would wash and donate them so that they wouldn't be wasted but i would only wear them once... i sometimes dream about opening a drawer full of brand new socks.

2. i stalk people on the Internet... if it is facebook or google... i like to see what i can find out about people. i think that this is something that a lot of people do but i always feel creepy about it so i don't like to talk about it.

3. i hate seeing people get embarrassed on tv. if it is reality tv it is worse but any embarrassing moment will make me turn the channel or sometime i just cover my face. if it is a really bad embarrassing moment i have to cover my face... or sometimes i will put my fingers in my ears and hum so i can't hear any of it...

4. sometimes i wait til the last min to pee... it is like i like to know how long i can hold it or just like the thrill or rush of when i am rushing to make it to the bathroom... weird yes

5. i love to watch the antique roadshow. it is one of my favorite shows. i like when people make big money off a purchase that they got at a garage sale. i envision that the person that sold it to them is also watching and getting really mad because they sold a $12,000 clown statue for 5o cents (did you know there is not cent symbol on the keyboard anymore?)

6. i love the sound to typing. it is a therapeutic sound for me.... i think it is because i love writing but i love the sound of keys clapping....


this is really hard to think of stuff. i am stuck. boo

7. i love ufc fighting. i watch it all the time. i even watch the reality show... the ultimate fighter. i dvr fights and herb dean is my favorite ref. (although i really like steve mazagatti as well). i used to think that it was barbaric and that i shouldn't watch it but really it is safer than boxing, and that i do like... plus dana white is so hot... i think it is more his personality than his bald head but he is hot.

okay so i did it and well it was hard and i don't thing that there are any life shattering confessions in this list but this is me... a bunch of useless information

update... read it.

so my life has gotten really crazy but in a good crazy way...



1. i don't work for Hertz... that is weird but really good. i made the decision a long time ago that i wasn't going to work for Hertz forever and well i knew that was coming to an end fast. it was really weird to leave Hertz though, like i am still having a hard time adjusting to a job that doesn't require 50+ hours per week



2. my new job is amazing!! i work for Foundation 2. I am a crisis counselor. Basically I answer the Crisis line, which can constitute anything from family issues to financial issues. The crisis center though focuses on Suicide prevention. we are the counselors that answer the national lifeline and hopeline. I am really excited to be working here... I am actually going to be making a difference in someone's life on a day to day basis instead of just renting them cars. I am really excited.



3. i start grad school in Jan. and i am such a nerd... but i am so excited. what is really dorky is i am going to be able to take just straight English courses.... i am sooo excited for that!! i am longing to read and write and discuss literature in a classroom setting. i can't believe that i am saying that but i am so pumped



4. i think that is all as far as changes but i am carrying on with the numbered bullets theme for the rest of this blog. i am using my new laptop on my couch with my new wireless modem that qwest just sent me today. at first i didn't know why they sent it because i was like... hello i have a modem already then i was looking at it and it is going to make my life sooooo much easier. which is always a good thing.

5. i quit importing on facebook... i didn't like that everyone i knew in my life would get a live feed update that i had written a note. if people want to read my blog they can.... it is listed on my facebook and those who usually read it know that there is usually nothing here but also know to check it every now and then because i sometimes write ( i just used the wrong form of "write" by initially typing "right") crazy.

6. i am done for now.

it has been a year....

literally...

wow time flies. i am wondering to myself if i should change this blog into something else or if i should just keep it going because it is still life after coe... but that seems to be getting less and less significant as time goes.... should it be life after marriage, life after cancer, life after hertz? i almost feel like my life is just a series of afters.... i am just living post- something.

it is like i am teetering on an unseen edge and each time i step out in faith, or am simply pushed i wonder is this the time that i step over the edge. i am making this all so dramatic but in reality it is what it is.... and some of the post have been great. maybe it is just the way i define myself. in the past. not here. i am working towards something. and maybe prince was right when he said "maybe I'm just like my mother, she's never satisfied"- and i think that is more a reflection of me than my mother... i am always wanting to be in the next step. just past where i am. i want... and i can't tell you. i want whatever isn't happening right now.

things are good. my life is heading in directions that i am scared of... off to school again, not working the normal 9-5 job for the next couple of years and i know that i should be ecstatic (and i am...) i am just freaking out that there is so much at stake if i fail. not that i am going to fail... i just miss the days where failing didn't have so much meaning. yeah it sucked and you had to tell your friends, family, and whoever else you want. but now if i fail, if my plan doesn't work, i have a husband that is affected, i have a house to lose, in-laws to face, and everyone will know... risk correlates with reward. it is worth it is is just nail biting. and when i was still waiting to hear back from Iowa all would be fine when i knew if i was in or out... and now.... i am ready to be done with where i am now.... odd.

i am going to write more. i am. just not now.